**Heartstring of A new mommy**

I have been addicted in buy gold lately. I wonder what had changed my taste but I simply love to look at myself with that shinny gold stuff. Especially with modernization of life, the gold designs can be in variety for choice. I like it so much when it matches with ruby, simply gorgeous. Even my three years old daughter has falling in love with gold that is Mickey Mouse shapes.

I’m kind of regret for not listening to mom’s advise in keeping the gold when the gold rate has not floated that high. I’m thinking if it is worth to change all my platinum jewelry into gold series.

I always wonder if any others parent would encounter the same problem like I had for having a son like Xavier. He could fuss whenever or wherever he is …. And seriously, that has really put both daddy & I into a very bad experience when to bring him out. We both kind of freak-out if to bring him out.

Nowadays, I’m completely maid-less and need to send both to babysitter house by myself. We had to think of ways to keep him sit tight on the car seat for the entire journey (from my house to babysitter house about 5km). Otherwise, just a short journey can be a nightmare to all of us.

So we have to prepare these inside my car:
Food (preferable bread or biscuit), a book with pen to keep him busy with scribbling.

Some other times, when is not in his monster character, he is such a lovely, cheeky baby of daddy & mommy. The way of his calling was such a heart melting…

What else can I say but to LOVE him with all my heart….

photo taken when he was aged 1 Year Old

How time flies. The little girl of mine is into 35 months old today somewhat it was like yesterday that she was born. The memory of what we went through still fresh in my mind. I remembered how tough life would be when she was admitted to hospital due to illness. I remember having to carry her alone in the hospital, meanwhile to hold a big bundle of bag with all her stuff. I would never forget about the first question I got from others if my husband is with me that moment. I would never forget all these memories I went through with her.

Soon she will be having a big THREE birthday and we planned to have a party for her. I wish to get a party organizer for it but daddy wants a simple party instead. Yeah, he is complaining it may cost a ton if to engaged party organizer. Probably I should wait for the return from gold bars investment and see how much I spend for the party.

Happy 35 months old, my little girl. Mommy will always love you….

I have quite a huge number of paternal relatives and because of it, I always got confused with the salutation and confused of which uncle & aunts. Imagine, my paternal granny has 13 children in total, 10 sons and 3 daughters. My FIL was in the counting of 5 and the youngest uncle was actually about 10 years apart from our age. The worst is, we got to know that the wife was same age with us. Daddy and I find it weird when to call her ‘aunt’. You get what I mean, it’s like a friend but you calling her with an elderly salutation.

It happened that I need to call the aunt and I asked daddy how should I address the aunt on the phone, guess what my man told me:

Daddy: halooo, this is Debbie. Can you help to get someone to pick XXX to see doctor? She is unwell. Thank you.

What a lousy idea….

After having so many times of empty promises, I denied in believe of what he would plan for family trip to overseas or anywhere else. Till date, my honeymoon to Maldives has not been fulfilled yet. But today, I simply got surprised when I was told about overseas trips on the coming months. Yeah, we are going to Taiwan and Bali soon. LOL… I think has to thanks the budget airline that always ensured ‘everyone can fly’. But I guess the major credit should be the bullion that we invested. Simply with just no much of investment but a high return from it.

I don’t really have a good sleep lately. Eventually I got shocked from my nightmare many times. It’s weird and scary too. Few days ago, I had this dream. It’s something about I was been judged guilty and to behead as punishment. You know, it’s similar to what we see from the movie of Justice Pao. I got struggled from this dream. It’s so real and I could feel the pain at my neck…*sweat*

The next day, as I was cleaning my bedroom and I saw this:

My deco pair of mandarin ducks & one of it was beheaded for no reason. So I went to look for the answer from dream interpretation and here is the answer:

Decapitation
To dream that you are decapitated indicates that you are not thinking clearly and are refusing to see the truth. You need to confront the situation or the person despite the pain and discomfort you might feel in doing so. The dream also suggests that you have the tendency to act before you think.

I think it reflected to my recent decision made on resignation.

Like I said on my previous post, it wasn’t a pleasant ‘days’ and it continue to being so. I noticed something wrong with my health. I had been on medical leaves for at least once in a week beginning of August. First, got fever for no reason, then having severe pain at chest. Doc advised I should not taking any heavier thing as my muscle near by left chest has hurt seriously. Though the medication could help to subside the pain but it come back after I stop taking. I then thought of taking leave to have a good rest (as advised by doc) but in view of my demanding boss commented that I’ve been on MC so frequently. Damn… it’s like sick also got to work.

Standing in front of mirror, I found myself look so emaciation. My hair is getting lesser due to having hair lost lately. Probably it’s because lack of sleep, stress & tiredness from having to work & done all house chores myself…..

When you got stressed up, the only way of release should be go for something fun and excitement. For me, hop into online casino games are the most effective remedy and I could be a winner for my bet. If you not sure where exactly the website of casino games, simply search at Google and they are many for choose.