**Heartstring of A new mommy**

January is like having only few day, a clip of eye and now it has coming to the end of month. Xavier was officially turned 14 month old on 20.01.2010. No much gain on his growing development.

In fact, his milk gulping is like getting lesser and lesser, from 5oz reduces to 3oz. Probably because of his current unwell condition. These days, he has no longer has night feeding despite he was unable to sleep tight. I just got headache when come to his milk feeding. Not even once, he could empty 5oz milk at a feeding, usually has to separate into 2 feedings. Wonder if any other baby does this??

On his motor skills, he is crawling pretty fast now. Most of time, he loves to crawl up to the staircase. Gosh, when you prohibited him from doing so, he yelled and cried aloud for his dissatisfaction. I told daddy we should get a safety stair gates in order to stop him and Xandria who also loves to climb up and down at the staircase. By the way, I noticed this The First Year gates comes with good function.

He is able to stand-up without aid now. The other day, I was trying to train him to be stepping out his very FIRST step. Haha… he did it but then fell down. I can see his effort on that, never afraid of failing. Oh mind… my little brave boy!!!

At the age of 14 month old, he is babbling a lot. Words that he loves to babble like ‘bye-bye’, ‘mum-mum’, ‘da-da’, ‘jie-jie’ (Xandria) but not mommy or daddy.

Hope you get well soon and mommy loves you, Di-Di!!!

It was another hot sunny day. Everyone is sweating and daddy decided to let kiddos have a good fun splashing time….

Xandria trying to tell me how much fun she had

both of them were happily with ‘WATER’

and the cheecky Xavier was calling me loudly…

*speechless*

splish, splash, sploshhhhhh…..

then… water all over his face. Fun, fun Fun

happy girl

Thank you for all your concern and caring. Both Xandria and I have feeling much more better as on today. My wound has recovered from bleeding but too bad, I still find a small bump at the back of Xandria head. Everyday, I try to rub it with an ointment but this little missy of mine refuses it.

It was a terrible accident I ever had. I can allow any hurt on myself but not to my children. Gosh, blamed myself for the careless and took granted on my children’s safety. Talking about safety, it reminds me about the protection of insurance. Probably I should pay a visit to the website of term life insurance quotes for my kiddos protection.

Few days after that accident, all of us except daddy were down with flu. Xavier was the ‘starter’, followed by Xandria and now, it’s my turn. You can imagine how tough our life can be. Xavier refused to drink milk due to blocking nose, Xandria unable to sleep tight at night and whined middle of night due to NO AIRCON. As for myself, took a day of medical leave on Monday and when I return to office the next, my boss shown me that ‘annoying’ face and reprimanded on my work.

I wasn’t in the mood of blogging or blog-hop these days. It’s because something bad happened over the weekend. Xandria and I had a worst fell while we were having grocery shop at wet market.

Xandria has very bad knocking on her back and head while I sprained my left ankle, bleeding on my right knee and palm. Xandria was crying so loud and I can see how painful she was the moment she was ‘throw’ on the floor. The accident happened was due to my fault, I took for granted on the carefulness when we were about to step down from a staircase. My body was unable to balance up after I step on the ground. I shouldn’t carry Xandria when I’m full with grocery on my other hand.

She was vomited few hours the incident and I’ve been worrying if that fell has caused any side effect to her. I brought her to paed for the sake of checking on her condition. But, the paed wasn’t encouraged that she has to do head scanning due to her age and also, she doesn’t have any other severe symptoms beside vomited once.

That fell indeed a bad experience to both of us. Xandria has keep telling me: ‘Xuan-Xuan pain pain’ by pointing on her head. Till today, the big ‘bump’ still there and many times, I’ve tried to massage on it but she rejected by crying aloud. i know it’s painful… my heart was like being tear into thousand pieces the moment she was on floor.

And I don’t feel good the entire week, what’s more when Xavier is having flu since Wednesday. He whined, he fussed and he just refused to sit still. I have to carry him all the time…

How time flies… it’s has come to end of week.

A part from rushing all sort of report for boss, I’m also doing some research on the simple recipe to be tried on during weekend/ Sunday.

I’ve not decide which cuisine to try but most probably will try new recipe searched for CRAB. Yeah, both mom and I love to eat seafood especially CRAB. Stay tune and I shall post it on my other blog once I’ve tried it.

Have a happily weekend…

As on 28 months old, I am pretty proud with Xandria’s growing milestones. She is fully diaperless during daytime and I just put her on diaper at night to play safe. But I can tell, she indeed has very good adaptabilities. She knows very well she has to pee on diaper and to pee at potty when she is diaperless. What else can I expect?

But talking about pacifier, she refused to wean despite of many tricks I tried on her. I told her that she looks ugly with a pacifier, unlike her cousin JX who so pretty with her dress and no pacifier. I lie to her, in fact my niece JX is still on pacifier but since she isn’t stay near to us, and Xandria likes her so much. By saying so, she takes off her pacifier immediately. But after few hours later, she requested for it again. *slap forehead *

Few weeks ago, I decided to change a new pacifier for her since she refused to wean-off. I bought a different colour from her existing one and it created a big chaos to me. She cried pitiful for unable to have her old pacifier because I have thrown it away. Gosh… for 2 days she has been crying like a baby looking for her old pacifier.

Sighh… I wonder any other tricks to wean her off from pacifier??

Today is an unpleasant morning to me. It was raining cats and dogs and I was already late to work due to over-slept.

Before I step out to work, I was told by the maid that the washing machine has out of function. And that has really put me ‘on –fire’. I asked her how could it happen and she replied ‘don’t know’. Immediately I scolded her that she has never use all the electrical appliance properly. What’s more she is the only one who uses the machine all these while and my mom never touch on it at all. I told her I’m going to have a good talk with her after my working hour.

I’m really lost my patient to her. Never had a thing she can do it at my level of satisfaction. From house chores to take care of kiddos, none of it she has done it well. What’s more, Xandria and Xavier still fell off even she is sitting next to them. Damn… I just don’t know what heck she is doing while taking care of them.

Gosh… I found myself so stress when talking about maid stuff. Many times, I hope I’ll be able to have a short breakaway to places like Cancun All Inclusive where I can really take a good rest, enjoy myself with that luxury services provided by hotel.

It’s a brand new year and I am so damn busy with my work. Although it’s just a normal routine works, somehow I am still running out of time for it, not to mention on my personal stuff too.

I’m start looking for a babysitter and also nursery for Xandria and Xavier as my mom will be returning to KL 2 more weeks later. Yeah, she has found herself unable to adapt to life culture in JB. Indeed, it’s really a big different compared to that ‘eventful’ life in KL. I don’t blame her for that, afterall it’s not easy for an old folk to start a new life at places that they are not familiar with. Even myself has taken about 3 years to get use of life here. I should be grateful for her help despite she has felt so uncomfortably living in JB. Thanks mom…

Caught in action… Xavier fighting on KoKo Crunch bought for Xandria :

ended to be Xandria holding the content and Xavier got packing box…

Xandria happily got the content and requested to be opened immediately

oh mind… look at my happy gal!!!

and the satisfaction on Xavier’s face

but soon after few minutes, he started to feel bored and ‘hunt’ for new toys