**Heartstring of A new mommy**

Xavier turned 20 months old on 20.07.2010. If you read my blog, I seldom updated about him or his growing milestone. Not because I don’t wish to, it is because I don’t know how to describe his notorious character. He has becoming a monster at home as he grows especially when he saw me around. He snatches toys from Xandria, he even bites on Xandria when both unable to have victory from each other.

he can be good more than anyone else, if he is not fuss…

I wonder, why he could well behaved at babysitter (aka Ah Ngm) house and turns into a monster the moment he reached home. His crying fit is terribly hard to handle. He cried aloud with his body lying down on the floor wherever and whenever his request NOT BEING FULFILLED. The more I tried to coax, the grimmer struggling he would be and we were the attention of everyone (if in public). You know, I am extremely HATE it …. Most of times, our outing would be returning home angrily. And worst, I think my neighbor might think I’ve been abusing my child with his pitiful, storming crying voice. Other times when he is not with his crying fit, he would be so good, to fawn with daddy & mommy, to make us laugh with his antics, to give us his warmest hug & kiss…

but…. when he started to fuss, he drives me to the wall…

Anyone of you can advise me how to handle this kind of child in public? Or simply I shouldn’t appear in front of him but using Interactive Voice Response to communicate with him.

We went to Penang for a short breakaway last weekend. It took us 1 hour 5 min flight from Johor Bahru to Penang and kiddos, being so excited for the first time in airplane.

We didn’t really have a planning on where to visit but simply took a walk at places like Kek Lok Si, Gurney Drives and shopping malls…

Xavier was having severe flu on the second day, probably due to the extremely HOT weather outside and cooler air inside the hotel. And the condition got worst on the third day where he whined all the time and lost his appetite. I saw his eye started to have reddish, and sniveled heavily. So I ended bringing him to Loh Guan Lye Specialist Centre (which nearby) for immediate diagnosis before we checked-out from hotel. Luckily nothing serious, not infection at throat or lung but might be due to dusty air contacted and caused nose infected by germs. The medical fees charged for 1 flu medicine & 1 nose drop were RM88++, not 08 numbers. It’s kind of expensive….

He was dozing-off while on the way to airport, after taking the medicine. And he was sleeping on the stroller more than an hour before we about to aboard. My poor Xavier…

So that’s been what we actually did at Penang for the 3D2N escapade. It’s really a good experience for traveling with young children despite it’s a tiring one. I’m sure look forward to have another Family trip with them again. Got to be well prepared with all necessity… LOL

I would never forget about this incident for the rest of my life. Xandria lost in Jusco when we had our weekly groceries shop over the weekend.

We suppose to wait for daddy at the dairy corner (he went to get a packet of rice), Xandria wanted to get a cup of CalciYum for trial. Xavier saw it and wanted to try as well. So I asked Xandria to get another one knowing that the counter just next to us. Xavier dropped the cup & I got to squat down to clean up the mess that Xavier did. After done so, I noticed Xandria didn’t return.

The moment I got to know she wasn’t with me, it was already been about 10 minutes ago. My mind got BLANK; my heart was palpitating. You will never understand how it felt. In a trembling voice, I asked everyone there if they did see a little gal with a blue flower jacket. I asked daddy to notify the security guard as well as Information Counter. I searched around the entire supermarket and prayed hard to God that she has to be fine. After few minutes, I saw daddy holding a little gal while another hand cuddling Xavier. Immediately, I hugged her & cried like a big baby. I was so worry if she was being kidnapped.

Thanks God we found her again and guess what, she was at nearby Exit door (toward parking bay) when the guard found her. I wonder why she would walk till that far. Blame myself for being such careless…

Xandria imitating the post of Shrek as on the KoKo Crunch Box *rolling eye*

I received a letter from a school at neighborhood somewhere in April. The letter was neither attention to daddy nor I but the address stated is ours. I don’t bother to open it as seem it’s a mistake by someone but daddy did it unintentionally. We were a little shock when knowing the content of letter. Guess what is that about….

PEMBERITAHUAN KETIDAKHADIRAN KE SEKOLAH: AMARAN PERTAMA

Yes, a warning letter to a student who absent 14 days continuously and the school was asking the parent to feedback in due course. I told daddy is kind of pitiful if the student with a thought of giving a wrong address to school purposely and ended no letter from school able to reach at their mailbox. Don’t you agree? I wonder what would the parent feel when they got to know about it. Kids of this century indeed a smart one… don’t play play.

Btw, noticed the salutation of  Encik? Could the name of Mei Ling sounds like a male name??? Funny school….

Xandria has turned 2y 7mth olds last week. Very soon she will be in her big 3 and I’ve yet to do any kiddies survey for her.

In JB, it’s hard to find a good one at your neighborhood. For those well-known and privatize, you’ll need to go to the town which takes me 30 min or more (if heavy traffic) to reach the kiddy. For a middle type, you’ll still in need of 15~20 minutes distance to reach destination.

Yesterday, I sneaked-out during my lunch hour & visited a kiddy at Johor Jaya (a neighborhood about 20min distance far from our house). The kiddy was pretty well-equipped with children needs and their hygienic level is about 90%. The even has a small swimming pool, as swimming is part of children’s sport activities. (I thought of having a shoot but been rejected due to safety reason. So no photo show…)

The fees for just 2nd term schooling cost about RM1100. Expensive?? For sure it’s not cheap….

Everything seem to be fine with me but I got a major issue that both daddy and I unable to send/ pick her from kiddy due to the class schedule. I’d ask for transportation from kiddy, but I’ve concerned on Xandria’s safety. She is yet to be able to get down from the car by herself. How can I expected her to do it by herself??

And that’s the reason why I decided to quit my job and being SAHM. So, you know  motherhood is boundless huh??? Yeah, I think so….

Having two active children at home, you will never have a quiet day. Every moment, I got to tell them “NO to this, NO to that”. Don’t’ play with this; don’t play with that. All these phrases would repeat day after day. Despite umpteen times of warning given, still they never care to bother until one got hurt and cried aloud. This scenario happened almost everyday and I really run-out of idea on how to prohibit / prevent them from accident.

The other days, they both were fighting for a laundry basket. Xavier has already played with it, with his body inside the basket. Few minutes later, Xandria came over and hoping to join the joy where I had with Xavier. She lifted her legs and trying to be into the basket as well. Her action has cause an imbalance to the basket and thereafter, Xavier fell-off with the basket.

Probably I should increase their protection with Los Angeles Insurance, which also known as Insurance Los Angeles. I just got to know that they also called as Los Angeles Car Insurance. Nowadays mostly insurance company provides all sorts of services to client. You name it; they serve you at their level of best. Don’t believe? Call 1-800-475-6840 for free insurance quote today!!!

See, how happy they both with the laundry basket….

Motherhood is never meant to be easy, I know but I never thought it could be that tough. Somehow I failed; I fail for unable to be a good mommy to my children.

I wonder if anyone of you did that to your children but I did it. I feel terribly upset with myself after the incident. What I did, I lost my temper and shouted at Xandria extremely louder. I think she got frightened for my sudden act and cried aloud. Few second later, she lost her control and wet her pant. Never in my life I treated her like that but she has behaved so worst recently. Xavier on the other hand very demanding and cried aloud for unable to get what he want. Their crying fit had driven me to my limitation and I just can’t bear anymore. I yelled at them very loudly.

After pacified both to sleep, I cried. I cried for my foolish action. I cried for being so impatient to them, I cried in failing to be a good mother. I cried for being a loser for life…

J’ai juste obtenu évoque du commentaire gauche par le lecteur de blogger au sujet de Xavier. En dépit de eux que tous les deux sont sous mes parents s’inquiètent, mais probablement de l’accident à produire toujours sur eux haut. Je devrais doubler probablement vers le haut de leur assurance comme protection juridique artisan ou protection juridique commercant.

En France, la plupart de parent a fait cela pour la sûreté de leurs enfants. Ainsi, ayons le peotection juridique particulier.